nothing is going on

I am not really sure how I can say nothing is going on, but that's kind of how I feel. Today is the first day of class and not a hint of adrenaline is present in my system. My bro-in-law comes in on Saturday and I feel neither particularly excited nor dismayed to have him stay with us. My children could run me over with their hotwheels and I probably would not even feel it. I think I've got oral thrush--among other pleasantries--and I really don't even care. C's potty training messes all over the house don't even phase me. He turns two on Thursday and I have nothing planned for him. It is hot and sticky and muggy and I just would like it to rain, to cleanse the air and perhaps my soul. The degree of apathy I feel right now toward Life in general doesn't even amaze me. I just feel like I'm existing in a state of nonfeeling. So...sorry about the lack of posts right now. There really hasn't been anything about which to write. I am hoping that the enthusiasm of being in class tonight might kick my rear back into proverbial gear, but even that is hard when I am obviously yet the latest victim of the Non-Native Speaker Discrimination Act in my department, no matter what my excellent (and departmentally recognized) teaching evals say. Have I hit my glass ceiling? For as much as I try to be a stay-at-home-mom and yet still advance even little steps in my career, I feel like I cannot go any further without either going full-time or finishing the dreaded PhD--which is something I really do not want. So who knows.

Time to get my eldest out of bed. I hope the rest of you have a wonderful day!