great dreams...awaiting the opportunity...

MQE and I were talking last night about the day's occurrances. My department chair acknowledged to me a couple of perfect numerical evaluations I received from the lit and composition course I taught last term, an email which I forwarded to MQE and I also mentioned that I responded in kind to my chair, expressing my gratitude in having been granted the opportunity to teach that class, to get back to my literature roots, and that I would jump at the opportunity to do so again. Perhaps if the seed is appropriately planted...

To which MQE replied, why don't I just develop my own course to present to the department to teach?

Funny he should say that...

I had spoken with the assistant chair last term about exactly that, developing a survey course in Latin American contemporary feminist literature, a six-credit semester-long course. It would be so much fun for me to develop and teach. I would just have to ensure the requirements for the course would jive with major/minor requisites, as it would be either a 300 or 400 level course.

Being as completely exhausted as I was last night when MQE and I were talking, I then got so excited about the possibility that I couldn't fall asleep! Running through the requirements, the general course outline...I would have such a good time designing the course that I would never get the rest of my work done around here. MQE thinks that I should work on the course and present it to the Department. I just honestly have no idea where I would find the time to do so. I already feel like I do a minimal mothering job, the house completely suffers, and I could eat better (read: more) than I do resulting from my current workload.

But I love it. Why am I so torn? If only we could afford a full-time babysitter!!!!--in the house while I'm in the house, and I could pop in and out on my breaks and give my children time...oh, pipe dreams. I am full of 'em--no, honey, not full of IT, full of 'em.